So it’s been few days since the release of my book and I’ve finally been able to sit down and breathe a bit. Wow. I’m a fuckin’ author!!!! To be quite honest, I never thought that I’d end up releasing this book. I started writing it sometimes in 2010 and then I left it alone for years. Then in 2014 when I turned 30 yrs old, I revisited the idea and started to write things down again. Since then it’s been a process of moving chapters around, deciding what to put in the book and reliving a lot of painful memories… over and over and over again. This book was never written with an intent to do something, I simply wrote it to tell my story. But I do hope that it inspires you, uplifts you, motivates you, hell even makes you cry. But most importantly, I do hope that it makes you think deeply about people around us and how we treat each other. How our small gestures of kindness can impact someone’s life in such a big way. With every single step we take, we leave a mark on this Earth. Big or small, make sure that your steps count and move you and us forward.
As I get ready to celebrate my birthday this month (I’ll be 35 on the 17th) I can’t help but reflect on my life. Especially when I have a feeling that this year and beyond will be the most amazing time of my life (I’m big on energy and I can just feel it).
I’m learning so much about myself and all the reasons why I am the way I am. Healing your old wounds is so important. Don’t ever sweep them under the rug and think that they’ll heal themselves. They won’t. I’m learning to find happiness and joy in the smallest and simplest things. I’m learning to accept all my faults and face my fears no matter how terrifying they may be. And most importantly, I’m learning to unpack all the burdens and mistakes that I’ve held on inside my heart for so many years and constantly beat myself up about it. Let it go honey. I know someone reading this feels exactly like this, you have got to let it go. It’s okay to be vulnerable, it’s okay to not have it all together, nobody is perfect. NOBODY. I use to always feel small and insecure in certain circles because I felt like I didn’t belong. Tatted up and loud, over the top. But fuck that. Be who you are and the right people will love you anyway. There are people you’ve never met, and probably never will, who are cheering for you and praying for your success. So for that, I’m forever thankful to each and every one of you for your support.
I heard Oprah recently talk about a quote “when you align your personality/soul with your purpose, you become the most powerful authentic self”. Yea, be THAT.